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Gnat_whereisthisgoing I don’t know if it is the end of the year that is causing me to ask this question? Maybe it is or maybe I have a little bit of seasonal depression. Whatever it is, I find myself thinking a lot about how things are going for me. Right now I find myself really conflicted. On one hand, things are going great. On the other hand, I am not really that healthy and I feel like I am struggling to find some meaning in my daily routine. So….I am considering some changes that will point me back to that long term view.  Here are some thoughts.

  • I will get my spiritual life back in order. Since we left our church plant several years ago where we poured our hearts into ministry, we’ve been hovering, not landing anywhere permanent and not really getting involved. It shows. I need to get a handle on that.
  • I will get back to some sort of riding consistency. I am not talking riding everyday, just having a consistent schedule. I can’t process my thoughts and I am not sleeping as well because I am not using my body the way we were created to do. No labor and effort means no sleep, at least for me. Riding is also my time for creativity. I see things. I smell things. I feel things. This is where my creative energy comes from.
  • I will see where my photography is going.  Not sure where this is going right now. Now that I am not shooting with the intent of work (my previous job with Salsa Cycles) or to tell stories here or in print, I am finding a new style. It’s more personal. It’s up close. I want to see where this leads me. I am also restarting my shooting film project because I just love the look and feel of film and if I am shooting for more personal reasons, the process of film and waiting works. I have already started this month.
  • Digital screen time – This has to change. Going to shut down my social channels for a while. Facebook has to go. I like to post to Tumblr and plan to continue to do that but my time staring at my phone/computer looking at blogs and images needs to be cut back. What if I posted once or twice a month and the rest of the time I was outside, being present with my family and shooting images?  I imagine how that simple task could change my life. I just need to do it.

I know it’s kind of cliche to do this stuff at the end of the year, but I am goal driven and I need to write it down. It’s time to make some changes. Hope to see you out there and hope to share a cup with more of you. Gnat_whereisthisgoing_2

2 comments on “Where am I going?

  1. robertkerner says:

    Ah, yes…#4. My wife sees me reading blogs or staring at Instagram and asks why I’m living vicariously through other people. I hope it’s not that pathological! I prefer to think that I’m seeking inspiration by checking in with others’ experiences but for sure it can be a time-waster. That’s not to say I’m wasting my time typing this to you. I enjoy your photos and stories. Keep up the good work and have a Happy Holiday season. Time to go outside.

    1. Gnat says:

      I hear you Robert! I spend way too much time on those social channels! They can be inspiration. I am going to try to set aside a dedicated amount of time to checking those out. Good luck and Happy Holidays to you too.

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