Lately I just haven’t been able to put words down in any sort of meaningful way. My mind is sort of like the picture above.Â Out there. Stark and alone in my own comfortable and private place.Â Turning over and moving forward but not knowing completely where I am going. While I have been enjoying sharing the images and experiences, I haven’t really been able to fully talk about what is going on.Â It’s not because anything is all that secret or anything. I just haven’t had the time, energy nor the words to describe the things going on in my life or the reasons I am doing what I am doing.
This past week something fairly significant happened and that was a job posting for a job that I currently hold. Many friends have contacted me to see what happened?Â When I tell them that I have taken a new opportunity within the organization, many folks ask me “What the heck are you thinking or doing? Salsa Cycles kicks butt and you have the best job in the world!”Â First I tell them it is true, it is an amazing job with great people and endless opportunity. Then I try to come up with an answer. I wish I had a simple answer.
The answer just isn’t that simple. My life isn’t just about a job or a thing. It is about being the person that I want to be. It’s about being the person that I am.Â It is about being the person that I am called to be.Â It’s about using my skills and talents in a meaningful way. It’s about other things that are bigger than me like providing for my family and hopefully passing on something meaningful and lasting to my children.Â I’ll also be honest, I am not in a very healthy state of physical condition.Â All the weight I lost a few years ago is back on. My sleeping is total crap and my sleep disorder is worse with the added weight.Â I am slow as babe the blue ox on my bike. My schedule is nuts. In my crazy world I have grown comfortable and fallen into old habits.Â There are many other reasons that aren’t really meant for discussion here that weighed in my decision but timing is right on the professional level as well.Â When I put all of that together, I decided that I needed a change for me.Â It’s time for me to try something new.